January 16, 2012

If I Am Not For Myself

It's Monday, the 16th day of 2012, and until now, I had yet to post on my blog this year. 2011 was an amazing year for me but the last few weeks, even months, have been overwhelming and I needed some private time to just be. So I've been resting, clearing my head, getting rid of the dark circles under my eyes, and trying to figure out how to make 2012 just as amazing but not as overwhelming & exhausting.

And that's where today's Monday Mantra, the first of 2012, comes in. Here it is, on my necklace, in hebrew. "Im Ein Ani Li Mi Li?", or in English, "If I am not for myself, who will be for me?"
I put this necklace together last Monday after going through some stuff that has forced me to dig deep and to re-examine how I've been approaching my life. The 26.2 is a reminder that if I work hard enough, I can accomplish anything. The heart is a reminder to love myself, and that I deserve the love that comes my way. And the hebrew "If I am not for myself, who will be for me" charm reminds me that first & foremost, I need to accept and expect the most from myself because if I don't, why on earth would anyone else?

Now I'm not really one to make New Year's resolutions because I'm not exactly the most disciplined person and I'm totally okay with that. But even more, because I feel that with each day, my life evolves and I'd prefer to change my goals accordingly. So as of today, my only goal is to try to be true to myself again. To put myself first, to put what I love to do and want to do first, and to take the time to do those things. I want to run, and practice yoga, and plan trips, and read a book, and love the people I love, and take a bubble bath, and eat healthy food, and take care of myself, and drink good wine, and walk in the park, and work on my photography, to be honest, to feel safe, to feel secure, and to be a good friend, and to volunteer, and to think in terms of the positive instead of worrying about what might be, to expect the best, and to come back from injury stronger, and build speed.... stream of consciousness, the list goes on....

So there you have it, my first Monday Mantra of the year, perhaps my mantra for all of 2012, and little taste of what's going on in my head. I don't know, maybe this post is a bit too open and I feel just a bit vulnerable... but I'm going to be totally okay with that. Maybe being vulnerable will help me feel stronger, if that makes any sense. 

Any mantras going on in your head for 2012?


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